About Last Night: Remembering Michael and Farrah

What a day. What a day. Is anyone else famous going to die? Let's hope not.

It was hard when Barbara Walters told me over my morning latte that Farrah was close to death, and when she died about an hour later I felt immense sadness. As a child growing up in the '70s, I saw Farrah everywhere. She was gorgeous. She was seductive. She was an icon. And I got to sleep with her in my bed every night—that sex kitten image in her bathing suit was on a satin pillow my dad bought me when I was about eight. Little did he know I wasn't pining away for her as he had hoped, but still loved rubbing against that pillow (can you blame me? It was satin!). She was an Angel. Not only Charlie's, but mine, too, and for so many others. Even though she somewhat disappeared from the spotlight over the next few decades, she was still that lovable Farrah. Hearing about her being diagnosed with cancer a few years ago was sad, but knowing it was there softened the blow of her ultimate death.

And then came the most unexpected news of the day. Michael. How could the King of Pop, self proclaimed or otherwise, be—gasp!—dead? It was unbelievable even to hear he'd suffered cardiac arrest. And then was in a coma. Then just moments later, we heard the news, which still is surreal. When my partner called me in the car on my way to a wine tasting, I screamed. Not like a little girl, but an audible shock that was done in unison with anyone who has been touched by his music. Michael Jackson dead? And just when he was going to, maybe, make a comeback. He lived a reclusive life and many people wrote him off as a freak. We didn't hear about him that often since his 2005 child molestation case, but he was still around. His music was still played in clubs, on the radio and at home. We didn't have to see him for MJ to have an impact.

They say celebrity deaths come in threes and the only thing that could be worse for gay community today would be if we, god forbid, received news that Cher, Bette or Madonna (or Liza or Diana for that matter), too had died. But fortunately for us, Jackson was actually the third tragic death this week; Ed McMahon, the lovable sidekick to Johnny Carson and host of "Star Search," where it could be said he kicked off Britney's career, died on Tuesday.

The news of Jackson's death sadly overshadows that of Farrah's, but you can't argue the impact both had on so many people. Around the world today people talked how much both meant to them. Throughout the morning, people Twittered their condolences and memories of Farrah. And as the afternoon turned into evening, fans around the globe played Michael Jackson songs and danced in the streets. A friend told me that in the heart of Chicago's hippest 'hood, Wicker Park, hundreds of people gathered at the main intersection and randomly started singing "Billie Jean."

Gay friends emailed to say they left work early because they were distraught over both deaths. People got together in the early evening for drinks to toast the pair. And as the night dragged on, more glasses were raised to the man whose music will live on forever.

So as I sit here, with "The Way You Make Me Feel" playfully bouncing around my head, and the image of Farrah with her pearly whites beaming back at me, I mourn the loss of two icons. Icons for very different reasons, but icons—to the gay and straight worlds—nonetheless.

How did their lives impact you? What did you do last night to remember Farrah or Michael or both? Let us know. Talk to each other. It's a sad day in the entertainment world and no one wants to go through it alone.

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Comments

[julia]

Honestly I cannot believe that Michael is dead.. I remember as a kid I had a huge poster of him and I would talk to it for hours and even kiss it before bed. Thats how much I loved him. Im sitting here almost in tears because he was the first and probably only person who I was ever obsessed with like that.He meant so much to so many people and he will be greatly missed.. Honestly my heart is hurting.

[Remembers]

Again I am aghast at the immediate rewriting of Jackson history and the vast numbers of people who look the other way because this pedophile was famous. I can only imagine the outpouring of revisionism when OJ dies.

[Mike]

He will be missed very much. I hope the media doesn't bring up his passed and just remember him for who he was. I live in Wisconsin and the 2 bars I was at tonight were playing Michael Jackson songs pretty much all night. What an influence in the music industry!

[Yekimi]

What did I do last night to remember them. I went to work and went about my normal routine. Why should I do anything different? They sure wouldn't have stopped for a second if it had been me that dropped dead.

[memoryboy]

Well.... maybe some of you don't care, or perhaps you feel the need to be as nasty about it as you can be and spew hatred. For those that don't care, perhaps Michael Jackson did not touch your life. For those of us who were fans, even slight fans, he will be missed and loved. For those who enjoy posting public hatred, are just hiding behind your computer screen like cowards, it's so easy to post sick stuff, but I think the bottom line is this: Michael Jackson was adored and loved by MOST of the world, so you haters have not much of a voice really, your opinions are insignificant and overshadowed by all the love for this extremely talented performer, who is right up there with Elvis, The Beatles, Madonna. Michael Jackson is one of a few Huge iconic performers that outshines most of the rest in a very big global universal way. Yes it is possible that he did what he was accussed of, but there is no proof, and that controversy has already been dealt with, so the world remembers him as a Legend, while only a few don't really care of hate him. LMAO, so it just makes the haters look rediculous and pathetic. May he Rest In Peace.

[callman]

You guys are being way too harsh. You must be young. MJ and Farrah and even Ed McMahon have been an integral part of our CULTURE for decades. It is like a chapter of our lives has been finished. Ed McMahon paved the way for current shows like "American Idol", and really, reality TV in general. Who cares if Farrah did drugs and drink, how many hoes out there of yall do poppers? If they were completely legal they wouldn't market them as "incense" or "vcr head cleaner".
As for MJ, his shit was settled. There is not one person out there who has not enjoyed his music at one time or another. And who else has sold 750 MILLION records? Three, not two ICONS will surely be missed, but we will always have that coffee cup with Farrah on it, and I bet MJ will set new sales records from the use of Itunes.
Should he have had a 14 yr old in bed with him? No, but what about everyone around him that let the boy stay there? And no one said he fucked him. Not one person out there is saint enough to pass judgement.

[phillip]

he will be missed and loved by alot of people he is the king of pop and will live on as a legend

[splerrk]

Unfortunately one of my favorite uncles is on his death bed too, but he is fighter still to this day & is hanging on for as long as he can.
I wish I was in Seattle to comfort relatives.
Both Farah & Jackson were major Icons when I was growing up in the late 70s & early 80s.
You'd have to have been lucky enough to have been there when the nightclubs were 100 times better then they are today.
They both remind me of the time when we would never comprehend even a second thought to come up with some of the screwed up disrespectful remarks posted here today.
It makes you wonder what people will say about these individuals when they die.
Everyone messes up sometime in there lives, the famous seem to get that pointed out more then you & me.
The whole point is to remember the good of people who pass in order to celebrate their lives & learn from them as well & let God or Jesus decide our faiths when we reach judgment.
And if you don't have a nice thing to say about someone don't say it at all.

[huskerdewd]

I fought off the urge to stuff dildos down peoples throats cuz that's all they talked about. BORING.

[John]

I'll admit that I did enjoy "the Wiz" and "Thriller" but we have to remember that is was written and composed by Quincy Jones, a great musician and performed by M.J. Quite honestly, M.J. could not have passed auditions for my high school show choir!!! He couldn't sing. That breathy falsetto was not tenor, bass, nor baritone. Gene Kelly said he was one of the great dancers. I'll give him that but if I really wanted to watch dancing, I'd go to a ballet. All of that jumping around and crotch grabbing was probably one of the reasons that he had such a problem controlling his breathing while attempting to sing. Read the book,"Michael Jackson, Unauthorized" from the early 1990's. He was a nutcase. The biggest tragedy here is that our media giants, folks like David Geffen, are able to create megastars out of low-talent oddities and drag our culture down with their greed. "King of pop" =Bullshit!! And Al Jolson will always be "the World's Greatest Entertainer." He could sing, check him out on youtube! These stars eventually become conscious of their own lack of substance and self-destruct. In M.J.'s case, mutilation by plastic surgery and apparent pedophilia were syptoms of the insanity. It was terrible, as a gay man, that people were judging us by his antics.
As for Farrah, she was the most beautiful woman of her generation. Even gay men had to look. For Helen of Troy it was the "face that launched a thousand ships". Farrah's hair will ever be iconic.
Your survey left out the big star. Who could ever forget Ed McMahon's "here's Johnnny!" and his chuckles on the Tonight Show!

[butterflyboy1974]

When you told me that your father bought you a pillow with Farrah on it when you were only 8, all I could think of was that he suspected you were gay and wanted to influence you somehow, lol. It just seems odd.

Anyways, I went on iTunes and bought a Michael Jackson album today, something I haven't done for 20 years. I think he was tragically misunderstood. With all due respect, I also believe he was deeply troubled and was warped by huge fame & welath that started from the time he was only 5. I believe he had a very unhealthy self-image and didn't really love himself, and he was usually surrounded by people who didn't really care about HIM but rather his fame and wealth. Finally, it seems he was profoundly lonely and I hope that through death he is at peace.

Thank you Michael for the songs, the moves, the entertainment. You were the biggest talent that ever was and will be missed.

[Jason]

Jackson was not a child molester. He didn't have the mental capacity to do it. And unless anyone here knew him personally, then all you need to stop believing everything you read on the news. He was acquitted by a jury of his peers. If you cannot accept that then that is your problem. But don't come on here and leave racist and bigot comments. Doing so just makes us as bad as those who hate homosexuals. Take your nasty comments somewhere else.

[Michael]

It amazes me the amount of people that cant just have some humane decent respect for the death of 2 people that touched alot of peoples lives. Maybe you werent a fan ok so keep your mouth shut for those that were and are saddened by this tragic day. We all know what MJ had gone through in the past and also Farrah but no one truly really knows what truly happened so stop being so damn judgmental America and just have some respect for 2 people that died yesterday. Thats 1/2 of this countrys problem you have all these people that just HAVE to be negative and nasty and make their stupid mindless rude comments. Its gets so old hearing it day in and day out. Just last night I was at a grocery store buying some food and at the check out there were 2 young girls one was a bagger and obviously about 18 and the checker was probably 23 or so. The bagger made some comment about MJ and glad he was dead and laughed and said I am taking it that you were a fan or something, I just looked at her like ok your 18 or so and just immature. The checker stopped what she was doing and looked at me then looked at her and said if you cant say anything intelligent then just stop because she was just going on and on about it and then she had the nerve to say and who is Farrah Fawcett anyway??? I had not yet said a word at that point but couldnt hold it in any longer. I said I suggest you go home tonight and get in the internet and goggle or yahoo Farrah Fawcett...maybe youll learn something today instead of saying silly things time to grow up. She had no clue what to say and as for her comments about MJ I said some are fans some arent I was kind of in between but I told her have some respect for someone thats died I proceeded to tell her Im sure you wouldnt want anyone trashing your anyone in your family if they had died today right? Regardless of what he has or hasnt done hes still a human being that has passed away.

[Saroyan]

PEOPLE BEING KILLED FOR THEIR BELIEFS/POLITICS IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN THIS FUCKING BULLSHIT. Look at Iran, Palestine, Myanmar, Darfur, Rwanda, Mexico...

BOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Stop being so fucking selfish.

[muzyqman]

They were major icons - years ago. But I haven't really thought about either one in a very long time.

Did either one really touch my life? - not that I am aware.

Will I miss them? - absolutely not.

Am I amazed at how many people are going crazy over these deaths like they knew Farrah and Michael personally? - Come on, this is the gay community. It's not about WHO died. It's about how much drama each individual who hears about it can create in his or her own life!

And that's almost as self-absorbed as Michael Jackson was for most of his life!

[David]

To me it was so very sad to hear that Farrah had died. I guess you could say I grew up with her watching her on Charlies Angels, it was one of my favorite shows. Then when I heard that Michael had died I have to admit I was crushed! I have to admit I consider myself quite butch for a gay guy, but man did I cry. They were two people who made a great impact on my life and many others. Yes they did some bad things but " ye who have not sinned cast the first stone"!! They left us with many good things!! We had a disco party in my garage with disco balls and strobes going, Michaels music blaring loud and many drinks and memories overflowing. Everyone had a good time and I think one of my straight neighbors had a gay fling with a friend last night.
Thanks Farrah and Michael, Love Ya Always!!

[Nick]

I drank two bottles of white wine, smoked some pot, took some adderal and listened to a SHIT TONE of Michael Jackson music!!!!

[HUh??]

I beg your pardon? What should I have done to "honor" these people? Didn't both receive honor enough during their lives. Farrah was a beautiful woman who led a full rich life, albeit not as long a life as most would have liked. Michael Jackson was an insane, immature, pedophile, whose madness destroyed his career, drove him 500 million dollars into debt, wrecked his face and likely led to his early departure from this mortal coil.

[Bryan Lovsness]

I thought of the many cancer victims and survivors who silently and heroicly go through their own battles with NO media coverage and I thought of all the very YOUNG children in Darfur and other parts of Africa who daily die of starvation and illness. Michael especially lived beyond his means and had the opportunity to have been saved if he chose to just use his money wisely to take care of himself and thrive in healthy living...

[Arthur Graves]

Farrah got about five minutes on the news about her deaf. An as for Micheal there been whole news cast about it. Guess everyone has forgoten what that monster did.

[wrankin]

yesterday was insane. and then there were the rumors that jeff goldblum died. I missed farrah more than Michael, but then when I watched the coverage, I was reminded how much of a huge talent Micahel was and just...it was really sad. itunes music is going to go through the roof.

[Kevin]

Call me cold, but I think Michael Jackson's death just seems a bit staged. Millions in debt, 50 sold out (insured) shows in London, I am guessing a pretty large life insurance policy, just had a clean bill of health, and he dies just before the big comeback is to begin. Just think about it a bit. If this was someone in your family, wouldn't it seem a bit suspicious? Suicide? OD? Who knows, maybe he faked is own death to get out of debt and lead a normal life out of the lime light. Lord knows he isn't afraid of a little plastic surgery to hide his identity.

[darylstevenny]

I didnt think I cared so much about his passing but I went out with my friend and as they played more and more MJ music, it hit me that, even though he turned into a freak, how great he was all of his life. It was so that Farrah died too. Surreal day indeed!

[chris]

I was shocked and not crying over it. Wasn't a fan of MJ only some of his songs. My faborite album was "off the wall" by him. Farrah I did have one of her posters on my wall, you know which one. As for the article. I woldn't be upset if Cher, Bette or Diana or Madonna passed away. I wouldn't shed a tear for them either. It will be sad but life moves. may they rest in peace and move on.

[questie]

Lots of mean comments, grudges and judgments. All I want to say is, "My condolences."

[Thomas]

Actually, they came in fours this time.
Rest in peace, Sky Saxon.

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[Joe]

I'll ignore the negative comments posted here. Chip on your shoulder, anyone? Anyway, Michael Jackson is the whole reason I love music so much today. I wore out his albums and literally put holes in my socks dancing to his videos up in my room as a teenager. His music had such energy and made you just want to move. I'd still perfer to listen to any of his cd's than the repetetive junk being grinded out today. If I had to choose between Billie Jean or Boom Boom Pow, it would be Billie Jean every time. Michael, thanks for bringing so much joy to my life.

[adgepa]

serious, Micheal's death comes at a time where he just needed tons of press, and took away the huge generation of tribute and memorial news coverage Farrah's death was getting. Now, Jacko's taken her thunder. Even in death he's overshadowing BIGGER icons; unbelievable!

[Peter]

I only found out about Farrah Fawcett when I was on Facebook. I actually could not believe my eyes reading about it. I mean, indeed, I knew about her struggle with cancer and I had been reading about the end of days for her, but I guess death is always final.

I grew up adoring Farrah Fawcett on Charlie's Angels and she was the "It" girl of the mid-to-late 70's. She was everywhere! Though she had only appeared on the premier season of Charlie's Angels (and guest appearance on the next few seasons), she had left a totally indelible mark on all of us who have seen her on TV, newspapers, magazines and movies of the day.

I still remember that I had clipping from the newspapers and magazines that I would compile into a scrapbook - all those memories...thank you for those memories Farrah Fawcett - I guess you are finally resting your tired soul among Angels. You will always be remembered.

[TonyPSyr]

I don't idolize celebrity. I don't know what empresses or queens or kings of Pop actually mean. I'm not good at comprehending fictional "kingdoms" that don't affect my daily walk through life. Indeed I don't even believe in celebrity. Performers are people who concentrate their efforts to cultivate their art. I admit; however, that some folks, regardless of whether they choose to cultivate it or not, have gifts that others do not.
That said, MJ showed a talent as a child being pushed and cultivated by his parents. 27 years ago, yes nearly 3 decades ago, he released an album that is considered the best selling album of all time. The bestselling album of all time I suppose is a befitting title to bestow on a person's work at the end of an era when the album medium was becoming obsolete. It is irrefutably true that nearly 30 years ago MJ's music and showmanship dazzled all of us.
Money, Fame, and perceived celebrity clouds peoples judgment. I believe MJ spent the past nearly 30 years looking for something that didn't exist. Maybe he was looking for more in his life and looked everywhere but within himself. It’s sad that his entire career and life took a nose dive into odd and peculiar behaviors, perceived endless publicity grabbing stunts and alleged child molestation. Today Michael where ever you are only you can answer for any of this, but I hope in the end, after all this you've found peace with yourself.
For me, I'd rather remember June 25th as the day a courageous Cancer Crusader passed away. Thank you Farah, I hope you made a difference.
As for Michael Jackson, I will maintain that he rode into the sunset of my world 25 years ago and I regret that he never made the efforts to continue to cultivate and grow his art, I regret he let himself become so distracted.
.

[kolby]

i was sad when farrah passed. but dear michael. i didnt feel sad i mean he was a good musician but i still didnt like him, it takes more then talent to be a good artist, his personal actions speak louder then his music. so goodbye farrah rest well. an good ridence to mr.jackson

[Rev. Nathan T. Tyson]

"Life is eternal, and love is immortal, and death is only a horizon; and a horizon is nothing save the limit of our sight." ~ Rossiter Worthington Raymond.

Blessed Be the Earth, which formed Michael Jackson's body in strength!

Blessed Be the Waters, which were the tides of Michael Jackson's emotions!

Blessed Be the Air, which gave Michael Jackson his breath and mind!

Blessed Be the Fire, which gave Michael Jackson his individual will and passion!

Blessed Be the Spirit, which bound them all together for Michael Jackson!

Blessed Be Mother GOD, the womb and tomb for us all!

Blessed Be Father GOD, guide and guardian in the other-world heavenly paradise!

Blessed Be the Stars, which gave us Michael Jackson and filled his soul with light!

May the blessing of the Omnipotent Father, Mother and Son of Creation be a source of comfort and peace upon Michael Jackson and his family, friends and admirers during this time of mourning and celebration of the brighter moments of his life here on Earth!

Rest in peace, Michael Jackson, may your soul now rest in GOD's heavenly paradise, may you no-longer thirst and may you no longer hunger, may your soul now rest and know an infinite peace, So Shall It Be And So It Is! Amen!

May Our Own Blessings Long Remain! Aho! Yeta Heya!

In love and light, respectfully,
The Rev. Nathan T. Tyson

[Thomas]

I didn't know them personally, so I didn't do anything differently last night. They were not a part of my life.
They are (were) celebritiies. It is like asking "What did you do differently because the cookie monster was not on Sesame Street today?"

[RoyalSyn]

I have a hard time mourning someone linked to molesting children - call me crazy.

I didn't know either Farrah or that other person personally - so, I don't have deep feelings about them. Will they be missed? Probably - one more than the other - more than likely.

[Remembers]

As I predicted the majority of people commenting are antagonistic about mentioning Jackson's pedophile past. They want to forget, cover it up -- shhh, keep the secret. These are the same people who look the other way when children are being abused.

Sleeping with drunk 10-year-olds is not forgivable -- a jury may have been bamboozled, but that doesn't make it OK. End of story.

And Rev. Nathan? OMFG, what a load of old claptrap. Although a man of the cloth letting a pedophile off the hook is nothing new.

[Rev. Nathan T. Tyson]

Remembers, you'd do well to remember that not one tribe of humanity smiles upon anyone that mocks the recently deceased or the dead for that matter.

But, I'm sure your ego is feeling awfully inflated right now as you beseech commentators for your 5 nano-seconds of Internet fame - such is the way of Egoists & Narcissists after all!

You're so full of venom and self hatred , that the only purpose you have online or can contribute to is the transference ( however mediocre in application ), of your own insecurities onto other people in our world.

We all are flawed, myself included, and unless you are of Divine Origin "Remembers", YOU are NOT in a position to judge anyone, not the living nor the dead - for when you fail to examine your own preconceptions, eventually your preconceptions comes "home", to examine you!

)O( Blessed Be,
Rev. Nathan T. Tyson

[DJ Gilroy]

A group of us took our clothes off, bathed in milk and rose petals and then sat in a circle of candles with a poster of Farrah pinned to the wall and the song "Ben" playing on constant repeat until we cried ourselves to sleep. In the morning - we were shamed....

[Bill]

I CELEBRATED Jackson's death. He was a PEDOPHILE and now more children (including his) are safe. Of all my memories of Jackson, the one that stands out is the sick feeling in the pit of my stomach when the jury found him innocent. Too he didn't die years ago.

[Rikki Reeves]

The moment I heard Farrah died I began to cry, only to sob uncontrollably when I realized that the fourteen hundred dollars I had spent on 86th row tickets for Michael's concert would not be completely refunded. My heart burns for Farrah, but my bank account burns for Michael.

Let's light a candle in her memory and a dollar bill in his - it's what they would have wanted.

[steven]

I TOO AM GLAD MJ kids are safe from him. Jackson's death. He was a PEDOPHILE and now more children (including his) are safe. Of all my memories of Jackson, the one that stands out is the sick feeling in the pit of my stomach when the jury found him innocent. Too he didn't die years ago.

[god]

Yes I agree that they will be missed but folks move on. GET A LIFE. To sit there a cry over someones death for more then a few days is just crazy. I mean some of you need to get a life or a job and become productive members of society please.

[ButtPirate]

What did I do when I learned of their deaths? Why, the usual: smoked a dube and turned on the SciFi Channel. Even on SciFi there's nothing quite as weird as Jacko!

[marc canada]

its a great loss for the artistic world .... thats it .... those who cry and do drama on people that died and they dont know them at all ..... even just as a fan of their music , movies .... come on ..... do get some productive shit to do in your life ... hello ..... thats so queenish .... probably some feminine like a virgin chicks with dicks ..... give me a shit break .....

m j was a weirdo anyways .... i have more sympathy for farah ..... overall it didnt affect my evening to the point of no return leaking tears on my cheecks .... i was suprised and shocked ... final point....

[Carter]

I'm I really don't know who she is or what movies she made, I was scared of Michael growing up. I use to think he'd kidnap me and do something horrible to me. I remember having nightmares as a kid growing up, so I'm kinda glad he's gone. He's so freaky!

[Remembers]

Rev. Mocking the dead would be if I made fun of his fashion sense or his girlish voice or his 10,000 plastic surgeries trying to be white.

Not wanting to white-wash (get it?) his unnatural attraction to underage boys that he systematically surrounded himself with, got drunk (on Jesus juice, no less) and at the very least slept with (we'll find out more in due time, I'm sure), is hardly mocking or narcissism.

It's memory.

And I'm sorry so many can forget all that for the sake of reliving their youths.

Wondering if NAMBLA will be giving the eulogy...now THAT'S mocking!

[Remembers]

...and let's not forget about the parents he paid off to shut them up.

You don't pay millions because you're innocent.

[eliha]

I thought the saddest part of all this was how Farrah's death was put on a shelf after michael jackson's was made public

[Tim Shady Little-Devil]

Hey from Germany!

When I read the first message about the heart attack of Michael Jackson on Twitter.com, I was prepared to go to bed, but ... the I couldn't sleep. So I searched the news on Google and after half an hour I read the first news about his death!!! :-(

What a shock! I can't find the englich words I wrote about the King of Pop in my german blog coz it was spontaneous and these moments are singular.

His songs and his sounds were the only mucic of the 80ies I could dance on and the sounds are making me a smile on my face. So what could be a bigger compliment for an artist???

I really miss him.

Tim, Little-Devil, Germany

[Bill]

HE WAS A FUCKING PEDOPHILE! Farrah was an angel. Period.

[Madrid]

BEYOND belief, shock and sadness. Farrah and Michael have been a part of my life for just about my entire life! I grew up as a kid watching the Jacksons cartoon show. As a pre teen I had the biggest crush on Farrah...I had all of her posters and collected every article I could find about her. I'd dream about kidnapping Lee Majors and setting up house with Farrah....at that time I was unaware that what I was really wanting to do was probably talk fashion or hair tips....faithfully I'd watch for her in Apple's Way....we have suffered and are suffering two truly great losses. I hope that they are in a much more peaceful place. Farrah's suffering is over, Michael's emotional suffering is over. Let's remember all the wonderful contributions that made to our lives and not any of the bad....they will always be loved..by me and by many!